Since I'm a couple of years away from the big "f_____y"' I've been thinking about a whole lot of stuff. I realize that I haven't invented anything big, I wasn't the first to discover stuff, I don't have a bucket list and I'm not sure if I can claim to be any more wiser than I was in my thirties. In fact, I'm not sure that I've made much of a difference to life itself. I'm not even sure what my purpose is in being here on earth. That's not to say I feel insignificant. In reflection, I realize that I've figured some things out that would have probably made things a bit easier earlier on in my life. However, I also feel more content in my physical self and am still working on the emotional and spiritual side of my inner child. I am liking who I am more and more. I've shed the need to constantly apologize. I've discovered that the "people pleaser" that I tend to be is pleasing less people and gratifying my inner-self more. So many women forget themselves in their hurry to take care of others. I want so much more for myself now that it's winding down to me and the hubs. I'm not sure I'm comfortable with the number "f___y" and ever will because in my mind I'm just turning thirty.
I'm still feeling that thirty-something person wanting to try new things, rediscover old passions, discard tired routines and spring into action with zest and ardor. For all that, I creak a little when I ease my way out of bed, I slowly unfurl myself when I get out of my chair and I sometimes need an ibuprofen or two when I've had a particular vigorous workout. The mind and the body aren't always on the same page. Having said that, I realize I can still invent something, discover plenty, create my bucket list and still gain wisdom. Whatever the reason for my being here on this incredible, big, beautiful planet, I'm just turning thirty in the body of a forty-eight year old. It doesn't mean I'll be gracing the cover of a magazine in a teeny, tiny bikini...hahahahahahahahahahaha! Sorry, just had to get that out at that vision in my head! On the other hand, I'm working my way up to looking fairly decent in a modest tankini, lol!
Turning "f___y" doesn't have to be frumpy and boring. In fact I don't think I know any boring and frumpy "f___y+" women. Everyone in that age category are smart, strong wise, funny and incredible! Maybe that's why I'm not ready for that amazing club!